I don't know who to believe anymore

I don't know who to believe anymore. I know what I want to believe. I know what I want. I wish the world were as simple. I've heard stories confirming my fear that Matt is real. My gut tells me that he is real. I don't know if I can trust either of them. I don't want to assume that you lied to me. I have too much faith in you to assume that. Faith, not only as a love, but as the friend you say you are. To be honest, it wouldn't surprise me if he is real. It's not surprising that yet again you found some older guy and let him in. I hope it isn't true, not because I'm afraid to have lost you to someone, but I'm afraid that ONCE AGAIN you will get hurt by some guy demanding sex from you. Or worse...you give it to him. I'm afraid to see you hurt yourself again.