What if...

I love her so much. She's got flaws. She is not a perfect person. She can be insensitive, sultry, hypocritical, unintelligent, annoying, and stubborn beyond reason. I look in the mirror and ask myself why I love her. even with those flaws...she's perfect in my eyes. I just seem to love everything about her, even if sometimes I am angry with her or she plays with my heart. She is my best friend, the person who I can be in an argument with, but still want to hold hands. I don't want to love her anymore...loving her means pain for me, pain for her. I want to get over her so badly, go back to just being friends. I don't want to look at her like she's a goddess anymore. I want to feel the impressions of her imperfections. I want to stop wanting her. I'm so worried though...what if I never love someone as intensely as I do her.What if, she's the one and I fucked up? What if I am going to live my life wishing for her. I'm not sorry I fell in love. I just wish it would go away now that I've been in both pain and euphoria. Where's the off switch on this killer feeling?