Where I am

I'm in a very weird place right now.

Words cannot describe just how disappointed the teenage boy in me is that we never got those thirty minutes with a blindfold. If you still ask me today who I find most attractive, my answer would still be you.

The lover inside of me has moved on. I do still love you but what happened between you and Matt is something you never had with me. I fought it for 7 months but that's the simple truth isn't it? the weird thing is that I'm okay with that...I'm actually glad. With him, you are happy and it gives me hope that I'll find a girl who loves me as much as I loved you and makes me happy too :)

In hindsight, I regret not using every moment with you when I had the chance. If I had to do it over, I would have used our time together better. But in all honesty, If I could change what's happened, I wouldn't interfere with you and Matt.

Because you are happy and that's all that really matters.

And I love you and love being in your life but i anxiously await the day I meet the girl with whom I'll have what you and Matt have. Only a year ago, i had never even met you. Who's to say where I will be or who I will meet in the next year? :)

So thank you, for being who you are. I love you for bringing out the side of me that you do. I love you for instilling in me the optimism that you have. I love you for being in my life.

:)