Breakdown

You and matt nearly broke up last night but today you guys are great. I couldn't help but let my hopes rise.

He tells me that "i love her and when u care bout someone so much u want the best for them and she was thinking come next year things would get very stressful and things would get tense which they would but i told her that she would be lonely and i told her that many guys come and go and they say this and say that but which really means it?"

I mean it.

I might spend a few hours staring out the window at the dismal rain sipping on a beer or two while listening to songs that only begin to tap my true feelings. The quicker and the more painful it is...the quicker I get numb.

Here's to another afternoon imagining that the pillows on my bed are your sillohette and that warm breeze upon my arm is your gentle touch.

Here's to yet another breakdown.