Virgnity

We talked today about how you really wanted sex.
We both do lol. It's natural.
It seems like everyone around us is losing theirs.

In my mind, i've created the idea that we will lose it together.
I've always held that in my mind since you told me that you wanted to lose it with me.

I know it isn't realistic. I know that there's even so little hope you would ever consider dating me again.
But there's hope, no matter how small.
And I hate my mind for clinging onto that small hope.
It makes me wonder how badly i will crash when you most likely lose it with another guy

I wish i could just go in and remove my love for you
remove the dreams
remove the hopes

Because I know I'm headed for more pain but cannot stop myself