Hmm

I told you about Kate today and...well, you took it really well. Question is...how do I take it?

I still don't know.

I know I still want you and when I think about my future, it is you standing beside me.

But it isn't really you...I just imagine a future with the "perfect woman" next to me, as every guy does, and you just happen to be close to her...and I'm not going to lie, you could have been her. But it never would have worked would it? You never felt the spark like I did. Maybe it was fate. Maybe I'm going to meet that perfect woman who will take that place by my side in the future. Maybe...but for now It's you...even though I know it isnt going to happen. even though I dont truly desire you as I did before

But I'm working hard at forgetting you. I am going to become a player. Go from girl to girl looking for her. Having fun all the way until I find her. Trying to move on.

We will see...